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rhondacrockettSo. Early Tuesday morning last week, our internet hub got fried in a thunderstorm. We got a new hub set up just on Monday past.
What I really missed about the internet was (a) the news and (b) having something to do if there are no other available activities of interest (also known as 'timewasting'). Otherwise... I was ok with it.
Another thing I came to realise: at school, especially in adolescence, I didn't talk much*. Instead, I sat on the edges of conversations and listened to the others. It was my way of belonging. I use the internet in the same way; I 'listen in' on what's being 'said' but I rarely respond and even more rarely speak myself. And I still get that sense of belonging... but now, no one else sees me sitting at the table.
And I know the above sounds depressing but I'm not depressed. I'm more, "Oooh, so that's why!"
* I'm still a pretty poor conversationalist in real life; it's something I'm working on.
What I really missed about the internet was (a) the news and (b) having something to do if there are no other available activities of interest (also known as 'timewasting'). Otherwise... I was ok with it.
Another thing I came to realise: at school, especially in adolescence, I didn't talk much*. Instead, I sat on the edges of conversations and listened to the others. It was my way of belonging. I use the internet in the same way; I 'listen in' on what's being 'said' but I rarely respond and even more rarely speak myself. And I still get that sense of belonging... but now, no one else sees me sitting at the table.
And I know the above sounds depressing but I'm not depressed. I'm more, "Oooh, so that's why!"
* I'm still a pretty poor conversationalist in real life; it's something I'm working on.
